Then I called out the name of the Lord. I said, “Please, Lord, save me!” 
I knew of God. I even knew some Christians. I thought, “well, I am a good person, so God loves me and I will get into Heaven, right?” Part of that is right.
I remember talked to my friend Barry, a co-worker turned friend, mentor and brother, about his relationship with God. Man, was he open about. I remember him asking me a lot of questions and I just passing it off as being friendly. Maybe a little nosy, but mostly friendly. (I know he will be reading this by the way).
One day in particular when when we were coming back from lunch I admitted that I just stopped looking for God. His response, well, let’s just say it was God inspired:
“God NEVER stopped looking for you.”
I nearly fell to my knees when he told me that. I fought back the tears, the pain, all of the years of living for myself. At that moment I knew I had to have a serious talk with God. Still I thought, “I ran from him for so long. I even turned the channel and refused to watch evangelical Christians on TV. What will God do to me?”
That Friday night I shut the door to my bedroom. My wife was downstairs, as I was upstairs, scared, shaking, nervous, confused..but, most importantly, I was desperate for God. Something in my life was pulling me heart. I knew that I had hit a wall, and whatever I was about to face, I was not strong enough to do it on my own.
So I prayed. I cried. I got on my knees. I asked God for forgiveness for all of my sins. To guide me in life, always be with me. I asked God for love. I thanked him for using people to reach me. The AMAZING thing about this is that at any moment, God could have decided I wasn’t worth it. I was too far gone. Too stubborn. too proud. But he knew my heart.
God works through different men in different ways, but it is the same God who achieves his purpose through them all. 1 Cor. 12:6.
God will use people for his glory to bring us back home. I 100% believe that non-believers and seekers feel that same pull on their heart. Feel that same desperation for God. We just need to pay attention on who God is using to reach us.
